Y I'll always b the one to be blame...I don't even know anything about it....Y cant they try to understand me..at least a bit...Don't blame everything on me...yes I admit part of it my fault..but somehow I've tried so hard to makes things better...hurm...ntuhlaaa

life doesn't turn up as u wish it to be
sometimes u try 2 b d best
but still u failed....
I want 2 treat him in different way
I don't want to pressure him so much
but still I failed...
I want to be close to him
I don't want to mumble at him,scold or said anything that hurts him
but still I failed..
I'll be there when ever he needs me
I don't want him to feel left out
but still I failed...
I've given him so many space n chances
he keep on hiding things from me
I failed again
I brought him everywhere I go
I want him to feel happy
but still I failed....
I talked to him,smile with him,laugh with him, even cry in front of him
hopes he understand
coz' I felt so much pain inside
d pain inside nobody knows
I pray to Allah everyday
show me the way n guide him to the right path..
I've surrender...
I FAILED to be a good sister to him...

Tuesday, October 05, 2004