I need to talk to you for a moment. I'll try to make this quick, and I won't expect a response because I know how difficult it is for you to express your innermost feelings, especially now. Did I ever tell you how much I loved that necklace you gave me for my birthday when I was eighteen?, the exercise ball on my 19th birthday for me to keep fit *sigh, my favourite perfume as a personal gift. I probably didn't. I was such a snotnosed brat (your words). This may be a bit awkward for you. I know it's awkward for me.

Did I ever tell you how proud I have always been of you? I don't believe I ever told you that, either. You were always there for me even when i'm on fire. You told me it was a shame, and you were right. I don't think I ever thanked you for that. Thank you. I probably never apologized either, did I. I'm so very sorry.

I decided to write you this letter in honor of Our Day, because you are and always will be mine, and I will forever hold you in my heart. But I need to be rid of this pain that haunts me, because I need to breathe again. Writing this letter is not an easy thing for me to do, it has taken years. Now I must move on. And to be quite honest, I don't know that I can, but I have to try. You understand? Of course you understand. Hope this one year give you lots of wonderful moment together

Thank God i found u !

Saturday, October 08, 2005