there is a storm in my head. im not sure where its coming from. it rages on and on and suddenly it stops. then it restarts and i feel like i might go insane. i dont know what its all about. its anger, but it has no source, or perhaps the source is me, and im angry at myself. for being silly @ st***id.

lately, my eyes seem to be hurting. this is probably from the contact lenses that i'm using.tons of things happened these few weeks. i'm so ashamed of myself. mortified by my own behaviour. amazed at my blind disregard for proper manners.


god im so self absorbed, i hate myself sometimes. *sigh*

I have been trying to formulate some clever opinions about a great many things, but somehow, I always end up stumped. I believe there are several possible reasons for this.

a. i have no opinions, therefore, i officially dont give a toss about anything and therefore am a seriously though unknowingly rebelious girl.

b. i have a hidden fear of speaking out disguised in the sugar coated colour of politeness, which makes me a two-faced fool, or

c. i'm going crazy. seriously, my brain doesnt seem to be functioning properly these days.-hmm, I guess the third option is the least degrading, so I'll go with that for now.

Sunday, November 21, 2004