What are you thinking about?
What's on your mind?
Dei! What's wrong with you la!

Nothing..Not sure... i don't know myself...
Dei! What IS YOUR problem la!!!

The truth...
everything..everything is on my mind. Everything disturbs me, and fascinates me all the same...I think about what I can do. I think about how I should do it. When. With who. Why. Why not. What else is there to do. And the process repeats itself. I find myself rotting away in my subconscious. Not knowing anymore what is happening around me... Not caring what is around me....
I think about my future, and then I think about my past, but when I start thinking about the present, nothing seems to make sense.. and yet, behind the senselessness of reality, there is this weird sense of simplicity that gives a soothing effect to my pathetic life..
To me, knowing what I want is simple. To decide how to get it is also simple... but my mind keeps on questioning everything... It tell me what I should do..but wouldn't allow me to do it! Keeps on reasoning my reasons. Finding fault with my justifications... and in the end, my simple objectives are all but a mist of confusion, and frustration....

Sunday, November 21, 2004