I remember a few days ago, a friend of mine posed me this question, one that I had trouble answering. But did come across my mind even before she asked... "Nawwar, isn't it weird, I study so hard and I pray and do all the needful. But why is it that I still fail? I have friends who aren't even religious, not as in religious religious but yea, as in know their responsibilities to God but they fare way better than me. Why?? I don't blame God or anything but it seems unfair, is this a test or is there really a hikmah behind it?"Don't we all feel that way? Except that most of us are just too afraid to voice it out, scared to give others an impression that we seem to be losing faith in God. It's a scary feeling in a way, one that hits us at times of total despair and depression...It's at times like this that we should hold on. I try reminding myself that all the time, "Hang on Nawwar" or "Don't give up just yet" but as always, it's all easier said than done. In the end, it's all a matter of believing in what you do and not giving up that counts. My friend is doing fine now by the way, on her way of building up a great career. Why? She never gave up. Not on God nor herself. Neither should I... nor any of us... Have faith in urself!!

Monday, January 24, 2005